Angelina Jolie has been going through some tough times over the past few years.

Speaking with British Vogue, the “Mr. & Mrs. Smith” actress, 45, spoke on her home life with six children as well as her various humanitarian efforts.

“The past few years have been pretty hard,” Jolie admitted when asked if she was in a happy stage in her life. “I’ve been focusing on healing our family. It’s slowly coming back, like the ice melting and the blood returning to my body.”

“I feel much more comfortable in my forties than I did when I was younger. Maybe because… I don’t know… maybe because my mom didn’t live very long, so there’s something about age that feels like a victory instead of a sadness for me.”